Remember that time “Orange is the New Black” made a crass joke about Monica Lewinsky? It’s okay if not — the gag was featured during the 11th episode of the show’s first season — but Lewinsky just got around to the show recently, and was none too pleased to find her name used as a punchline.

“I did what I usually do in these situations where the culture throws me a shard of my former self,” Lewinsky wrote in a piece published by VanityFair.com. “After the cringing embarrassment, the whiff of shame, and the sense that I am no longer an agent running my own life, I shuddered, I got up off the sofa, and I turned it off.”

The joke in question was uttered by Nicky (Natasha Lyonne), who told Daya (Dascha Polanco) that to entrap Pornstache (Pablo Schreiber), she would need to “Lewinsky that shit” and “get some splooge on your uniform.”

Lewinsky doesn’t reveal whether she picked up “Orange Is The New Black” again, but there’s a whole lot more about public narratives and personal rebuttals over at Vanity Fair. She’s a blogger there now.